One thing that scares me is that NOW I am soo swamped I can only live in fear of what life will be like when this little guy comes! I don't know... sometimes I think I need to just chill a little and go with it, not taking myself so seriously all of the time. That would probably free up some time--not sitting around stressing about all of the things that aren't getting done!
I sat flipping through my photos to see what I wanted to blog about and I realized I hadn't done a "pregnancy story" blog. So I'll start there with these photos....
I had gone to the baby doctor for my FIRST appointment (it took 5 weeks for me to get in!) and after, it was such a beautiful October day that I picked up the girls and took them to the park.
Crosby spent all of her time on the monkey bars!
Paisley and Paxton (a darling little guy my mom watches) hung out together on the slides
and then there is this little one with us....already growing quickly as you can see.
This was one of the first indicators that I was "with child." My tummy was quickly expanding and no longer could I "suck it in!" I had told Heath a couple of weeks before Bluegrass in early September that I thought I was experiencing some of the signs of early pregnancy. He wanted me to take a test right away but I convinced him that I wanted to wait a bit. We had tried for soo long to get pregnant with Paisley (more than a year and a half) that I was so excited to take a test anytime I felt a twinge of a symptom! After several negative pregnancy tests I finally got a positive about 4-5 weeks in (which was WAY early-with a LONG road ahead).
I was a little more gun-shy this time around. It wasn't that we weren't trying...from the time I was pregnant with Paisley, we had discussed the possibility of having one more. I just didn't FEEL like I was done. That I would have MUCH regret not having just one more. I know some of my friends think that I am just CrAzY! I have always wanted a whole bunch of my own kiddos and the stars are just so aligned that I am able to have that option. I have a great job with tons of time off, a big house, a babysittin' Grammy that lives just down the road, and most importantly a hubby that is so hands on AND open to the idea of many babies! I'm so ThankFul!
So, back to baby...this summer my hubs and I were discussing the possibility of one more Curtis bambino. He said that he was fine with it but he wanted it to be sooner than later. The thought of his "now or never" proposal TERRIFIED me! I had only just begun feeling recovered from my pregnancy with Paisley and adjusted to life with a baby. The thought of doing that all over again was a lot to wrap my brain around! I agreed to go ahead with the plan thinking that it would take a year or so for me to become a sacred vessel like it had with Paisley! Oh no, not this time!
We know now that I became pregnant in July. The month...if not the DAY we had our "little" discussion! EEEKS! Since I had only had 2 very irregular periods since November I was not alarmed when I didn't have one in August. I didn't think much of it until I started to feel sick-y in September and then right around the week of Bluegrass (we date everything in the fall in proximity to Bluegrass!) missed another period. I took it VERY easy during the festival...napping and going to bed by ten or so every night. I had a very good idea what was happening but still wanted to keep it on the DL until we got home from our annual musical sabbatical. On Sunday when we got home, I went straight up to the bathroom and took a test. Immediately that little stick had two bold pink lines. I didn't need to re-read the directions or take another test this time around. I knew exactly what that meant. We had known....the test only confirmed it and immediately I officially became a pregnant momma again, to be pampered, fed, and allowed moodiness and mucho sleep!!
Quickly I accepted the fact that not only was I going to be pregnant again for the SECOND year in a row...but we were going to be bringing another baby into our lives! WOW! Since that day, the former has been more prevalent. Pregnancy is all consuming to me. I am a mom that rarely sits still and right now my body simply puts the brakes on most everything no matter how hard I work against it. This time around it has been even more of a tiring experience because we have THE MOST ACTIVE 14month old on the planet. She is one of those babies that we cannot take our eyes off for a second...she is always into something, and it is never her toy basket!! She likes to dip Webkinz in the toilet, climb up on the dining room table, spill drinks, play in the dog bowl...you name it and she is into it!!
As this pregnancy with our sweet son (I'll do sonogram day another time) nears its 3rd trimester the realization of another baby in the house becomes more of a reality. Mother's intuition tells me he will be a sweet little guy like his daddy. I am just concerned that his big sister Paisley will teach him her ornery ways and I will have two babies sitting on my dining room table pounding the keys out of my laptop!!! HA!
Wish us luck!
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